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welll lets see, i dont rememeber last mon, i guess nothing happened. then tues i went to my friends bday party, that was kinda fun, but everyone was talking in english and it was such a big group i just got overwhelmed and shy. sooo me and camilla and vanessa left early, i dont know why i go out on tuesdays, i have class so early on wed, but it was a bday, so i had too. hah then wed hmm, my memory is bad, i dont remember anything special that day either....

but thurs! well this day i went out to coyote quemado, a bar in valpo thats really cheap and met maggie, camilla, and connor and one of camilla's friends, mateas and some others. we got bored their and camillas friends were going to some school party so we decided to go with mateas to a gay club (i forget the name). IT WAS AMAZING. one of the best nights i have had here so far. we just danced to the music videos of amazing songs, including old school britney, katy perry, lady gaga, spice girls, yelle, single ladies, i mean every awesomely perfect pop song u can think of. and the best part was that everyone knew all teh words in english. it was so so so mcuh fun, we just danced until VERY late. def my latest night yet. also, maggie got pulled into a stall in the bathroom with a guy and girl and asked who she wanted to make out with first...apparently the bathrooms there arent really for going potty. me and maggie also figured out that by just telling creepers who wanted to dance/touch/talk to us we were "parejas" they would respect that and just leave us alone. but really, there werent many creepy guys there, which i think is why i liked it so much, also, everyone was just so so content to be themselves, it was such a free place and i just never felt awkward or judged. it was so nice.

then friday i had to get up early and finish an essay and then went to get my chilean id! that was really exciting. only i look about 12 in it haha. then i went out to eat and had very yummy crepes with manjar (the amazing dulce de leche fudge like stuff i cant get enough of). then went to a program class. that night i didnt feel so good or up for going out, so i went to vanessa's house and her and kathleen and i just ate an ice cream log (another amazing perk to living here) and talked. i really really like those girls, we get along so well, i can just tell they actually genuinely care about me and others. vanessa especially has been so great, she is always asking me how i am, esp with sean shit, and its just nice to know that even tho she hasnt known me for so long, she cares and it feels like we've been friends for a long time. also, by chance her family lives in scottsdale some months out of the year...how weird is that? soo that night was really fun, and def reminded me of hs.

then sat i didnt do anything in the daytime. that night i went with ashley and kathleen to meet mateas and his friends/potential bf. i was really excited mostly just cause mateas just reassured me so much about how he wanted me to come, and its just always nice to have someone (esp a chilean) make sure u know u are wanted, cause sometimes i feel like a pest since its hard to understand me or i take forever to talk or w/e. anyways, we went to a weird gay bar that was just empty and had a weird vibe. and then we went to a club called blondie. we went to watch his friends' electropop show. he played with 2 girls who i guess are really famous here, i dont remember there names, but i didnt like them. but his show alone was really good. he had two guy backup dancers who were soo good, i later learned they were going out and thats prob why they clicked and had so much emotion in their body language, but anywayssss we watched that, i got hit in the head multiple times with the glow sticks they kept chucking at us haha and then we went upstairs to dance moreee. while i was taking a break against the well, mateas came up to me to gossip about his boy situations (i think he is a man whore ha) it made me happy tho. i feel like i really am making chilean friends who firstly, can understand me and we can actually have conversations, and also that its on a level more than just partying together. cause there are plenty of people to find like that, but i want something that will last or have meaning to it. and i think im finding it with soo many people, american and chilean :)


ok so then kathleen, ashley and i left, but on the way to the bus, we stopped outside of a salsa sounding bar and danced in the street to the music. we could see the band from the window and they kept telling us to come in and tried bribing us with drinks, but we just stayed outside. it was so so fun and random tho.

then sunday i went to the beach :) i went alone for awhile-one of the best things in the world- and then was joined by some gringas. then we went to have ice cream with my friend marco. ha he is such an awkward boy, but he helps us learn spanish and is really really nice.

so then mon morning i was kinda in a weird homesick funk. i didnt like anything about chile, like how i had to take dirty, loud crowded buses so far away to class and always walk hills (not the denison is much diff ha) and that nothing is where/when is says it is and that i just didnt really know anyone here. idk i was cranky and really missing familiar things. but then i snapped out of it haha. i just have to keep remembering that im only here for 3 more months of all the months of my life (o my god the time is flyinggggg)

um, but anyways, i was nervous to go to class that dat too cause i had to join another class...a month late. cause my program fucked up and told me i had enough credits, but on the last day to change schedules they changed their minds. anyways, it was just a gym like class, but its with 80 chileans, so i was super nervous to go. but the profesor was so nice and i met 2 girls who talked to me alot and were really nice. we had to give presentations in front of the whole class, but one girl who was my partner just talked for both of us. i was sooo relieved. there was no way i was gonna be the new girl AND give a presentation in spanish in front of all of them. haha, o terrifying. and then i walked home with vicki and nick. i hadnt really gotten to know nick, he goes to oberlin so i could actually see him again. he is a really really nice kid, i was glad we had a good hour walk to talk haa.

then yest i went to dance class, ran lots of errands and then went to yoga at my school. that was such a joke. it was literally just a little stretching, like headstands and laying there for an hour. the music was good tho. but the lady had no idea what she was doing, i saw her do soo many things other teachers have always told me not to do cause it will fuck u up. so that was boring/entertaining at the same time. i think i might still go just to meet more people, but not actually to work out. umm and then i went out for my friend elizabeths bday. we went and got pizza and then went to a salsa place! we got lessons and danced alottt. our friend lufe ;) taught me how to salsa and some other dance too, it was pretty embarrasing haha. it was a really fun night, just a few of us, i met some more chileans and the dancing was amazing. just watching the people who actually knew what they were doing was sooo beautiful. when the girls dance they just have such a beauty and confidence to them that amazes me. they just look soo sure of themselves and clearly know how to move. i was very envious of them, they were so beautiful to watch.

then today i just went to some classes, went running, actually did yoga, talked to the real fam, ate with the mom and g-ma and did hw, kinda a good laid back day. i was supposed to do some volunteer work, but it got cancelled or something.

soo there is another amazingly long post. idk why people keep telling me to write, you must regret is after haha. wellll thanks for reading if u got this far.

also, have i mentioned that i am the luckiest girl in the world? it keeps hiting me...

so much love floating up (or over, depending on where u are in the world) from chile!

ps. did u know that when i look out to the ocean, if i could, the next piece of land i would be able to see would be new zealand? ya i googled it, so what, how amazing is that?!