im tired.
today was not my day.
and yet i still feel ok.
thanks chile.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Saturday, April 25, 2009
i love my life.
i dont know how many times i can say or feel that a day.
the only way this could be any better is if my friends and family from "home" (wherever that is) were here.
i have never felt so free.
i have never felt so me.
this is an amazing place.
im definitely not looking forward to going back to reality and working and schedules and doing what im supposed to instead of what i want.
living in the moment is the best thing i have ever learned.
so with all that out of the way....
tuesday was one of the best days of my life. i went to dance class, which is always entertaining, then i was waiting to go to pilates and one of my friends told me he and others were going to renaca, 2 cities away, to go to the beach there and i should come. so i changed my mind, went home and ate quick and then we went to renaca. we just hopped on a bus and got off where we felt like looked good. which is everywhere there cause renaca is the rich city. then we went to the beach and i saw the biggest waves i have ever actually seen in real life. it was crazy. they could def kill me. then kathleen betsy and i decided we wanted to go to the sand dunes and get empanadas and ice cream. we started walking cause we thought they were ALOT closer than they were....so after realizing we would never make it and we had to be on the other side of the hill, we tried to go up an acsencor (the elevators on the hills) which turned out to be private and just to peoples apartments, but the guy working it was really nice and explained which bus we needed, and flagged it down as we literally ran to it haha, we must have looked soooo dumb. then we were on there for a long time, switched buses and like 30 mins later got to the dunes where maggie was waiting for us. we went to the store, got empanadas and wine and i got manjar cookies and then we hiked up the dunes. it was gorgoues. the sun was just starting to set. the sand was turning pretty colors, it was the softest and finest sand i have ever felt. so we sat there eating and talking and it was just perfect. on the left was my city and sister city and we watched the sun reflect off all the buildings and then the city lights start to turn on. and then in front of me was the ocean as beautiful as ever and to the right more sand dunes and cities. i have never been so content to just sit and stare. i had planned out what i was going to do that tues, instead it became this amazing and random day.
then it got even better cause we went home real quick, showered and went to salsa. i invited some new chilean friends and they came so that was really cool cause i just keep expanding my friends. i danced alot. i got to know ben a bit more, i didnt like him when i first met him, but we danced and he was really funny and goofy and actually nice. i also danced with some old guy and then some really smelly hippie dude. he was soo funny, like hearing his own beat and was def on something but he made me smile the whole time and he knew really cool turns. i like being the girl, u just get spun around all the time, its so fun haha. also speaking of hippie dude, im going to get a dread in the back of my hair, like at the bottom. everyone here has them and i figured when in rome....my friend choklo is going to do it for me, im excited.
umms then weds nothing special happened really, i just went to classes and stayed home that night and talked to friendssss.
thurs i went running...BAD idea,i felt like my legs were tearing apart...one thing about living here i dont like, EVERYTHING is on hills, my legs are always sore and calves are always so so so tight. but i passed vanessa's real mom and her bf on the street and that was kinda neat. then i went to class and walked home with vicki who now lives close to me! im really excited about that. then i did nothing again that night, finally a thursday night in...
yest, fri, i went to pilates and aerobox class. aerobox is amazing. its like dancing kickboxing to like techno britney spears. its soooo funny and i love it. i smiled the whole time and looked like an idiot, but it was awesome. then i ran errands for my mom, ate lunch and went to the beach. it was kinda chilllly, and i got bitched out by some pregnant woman in spanish for not giving her money...i just blocked her out and looked at the ocean haa. then i ended up watching the sunset with david haha how romantic. he is actually really cool and we get along really well.
then i went home and eventually me and kathleen met up with paul, nick and some other people at juglar. while downing a vino con fruita with her some really drunk, not all there woman tried talking to me, who knows about what....3 of tried to understand, it was NOT spanish or any language ive heard b4. but she just kept saying she was sorry and she didnt know i was a foreigner, she kept pulling my arm to hers and saying something about how our skin was the same...she knew i didnt understand yet kept going...it was funny. then we went to some knew place called kamikazi, its really modern, but kathleen and i left soon after to meet ashley and sam at the plaza. so we pretty much ran across town to make it there by midnight (hah i make it sound like cinderella now) and we made a pit stop in a hotel to go pee. that was hilarious cause there was a wedding going on and all these old dressed up people and we clearly didnt belong. so we just got stared at, it was so funny. then we took a bus to this party at the beach las salinas. and here is where i become awesome. me and my friends were totally on the VIP list...ive never been on a list, let alone VIP, in chile. it was one of my shining moments haha. the place is so cool, it has 3 rooms with diff types of musica and a balcony over the ocean and u can see the beach/ocean from all the rooms. it was really neat. we just hung out and danced, i ended up babysitting nick pretty much the whole night cause he wasss really high and drunk, but i still had fun. also had some awk moments with paul, but it was all in good fun. then we took a micro home, paul and nick walked me home and that was that.
today i got up super late, talked to chels a bit and some othersss and later i am going to valpo to color cafe, a really cute place to eat with elizabeth and kathleen and then we are going to some other cafe to watch some boy named diego peralta play an acoustic set. i listened to him on myspace and he sounds so good, plus his top friend is elliot smith, so i give him puntos already. aha
so thats all. these are always so long. i have a gift.
"everytime you come around, i feel more alive."
bunches of love from the southern hemisphere <3
i dont know how many times i can say or feel that a day.
the only way this could be any better is if my friends and family from "home" (wherever that is) were here.
i have never felt so free.
i have never felt so me.
this is an amazing place.
im definitely not looking forward to going back to reality and working and schedules and doing what im supposed to instead of what i want.
living in the moment is the best thing i have ever learned.
so with all that out of the way....
tuesday was one of the best days of my life. i went to dance class, which is always entertaining, then i was waiting to go to pilates and one of my friends told me he and others were going to renaca, 2 cities away, to go to the beach there and i should come. so i changed my mind, went home and ate quick and then we went to renaca. we just hopped on a bus and got off where we felt like looked good. which is everywhere there cause renaca is the rich city. then we went to the beach and i saw the biggest waves i have ever actually seen in real life. it was crazy. they could def kill me. then kathleen betsy and i decided we wanted to go to the sand dunes and get empanadas and ice cream. we started walking cause we thought they were ALOT closer than they were....so after realizing we would never make it and we had to be on the other side of the hill, we tried to go up an acsencor (the elevators on the hills) which turned out to be private and just to peoples apartments, but the guy working it was really nice and explained which bus we needed, and flagged it down as we literally ran to it haha, we must have looked soooo dumb. then we were on there for a long time, switched buses and like 30 mins later got to the dunes where maggie was waiting for us. we went to the store, got empanadas and wine and i got manjar cookies and then we hiked up the dunes. it was gorgoues. the sun was just starting to set. the sand was turning pretty colors, it was the softest and finest sand i have ever felt. so we sat there eating and talking and it was just perfect. on the left was my city and sister city and we watched the sun reflect off all the buildings and then the city lights start to turn on. and then in front of me was the ocean as beautiful as ever and to the right more sand dunes and cities. i have never been so content to just sit and stare. i had planned out what i was going to do that tues, instead it became this amazing and random day.
then it got even better cause we went home real quick, showered and went to salsa. i invited some new chilean friends and they came so that was really cool cause i just keep expanding my friends. i danced alot. i got to know ben a bit more, i didnt like him when i first met him, but we danced and he was really funny and goofy and actually nice. i also danced with some old guy and then some really smelly hippie dude. he was soo funny, like hearing his own beat and was def on something but he made me smile the whole time and he knew really cool turns. i like being the girl, u just get spun around all the time, its so fun haha. also speaking of hippie dude, im going to get a dread in the back of my hair, like at the bottom. everyone here has them and i figured when in rome....my friend choklo is going to do it for me, im excited.
umms then weds nothing special happened really, i just went to classes and stayed home that night and talked to friendssss.
thurs i went running...BAD idea,i felt like my legs were tearing apart...one thing about living here i dont like, EVERYTHING is on hills, my legs are always sore and calves are always so so so tight. but i passed vanessa's real mom and her bf on the street and that was kinda neat. then i went to class and walked home with vicki who now lives close to me! im really excited about that. then i did nothing again that night, finally a thursday night in...
yest, fri, i went to pilates and aerobox class. aerobox is amazing. its like dancing kickboxing to like techno britney spears. its soooo funny and i love it. i smiled the whole time and looked like an idiot, but it was awesome. then i ran errands for my mom, ate lunch and went to the beach. it was kinda chilllly, and i got bitched out by some pregnant woman in spanish for not giving her money...i just blocked her out and looked at the ocean haa. then i ended up watching the sunset with david haha how romantic. he is actually really cool and we get along really well.
then i went home and eventually me and kathleen met up with paul, nick and some other people at juglar. while downing a vino con fruita with her some really drunk, not all there woman tried talking to me, who knows about what....3 of tried to understand, it was NOT spanish or any language ive heard b4. but she just kept saying she was sorry and she didnt know i was a foreigner, she kept pulling my arm to hers and saying something about how our skin was the same...she knew i didnt understand yet kept going...it was funny. then we went to some knew place called kamikazi, its really modern, but kathleen and i left soon after to meet ashley and sam at the plaza. so we pretty much ran across town to make it there by midnight (hah i make it sound like cinderella now) and we made a pit stop in a hotel to go pee. that was hilarious cause there was a wedding going on and all these old dressed up people and we clearly didnt belong. so we just got stared at, it was so funny. then we took a bus to this party at the beach las salinas. and here is where i become awesome. me and my friends were totally on the VIP list...ive never been on a list, let alone VIP, in chile. it was one of my shining moments haha. the place is so cool, it has 3 rooms with diff types of musica and a balcony over the ocean and u can see the beach/ocean from all the rooms. it was really neat. we just hung out and danced, i ended up babysitting nick pretty much the whole night cause he wasss really high and drunk, but i still had fun. also had some awk moments with paul, but it was all in good fun. then we took a micro home, paul and nick walked me home and that was that.
today i got up super late, talked to chels a bit and some othersss and later i am going to valpo to color cafe, a really cute place to eat with elizabeth and kathleen and then we are going to some other cafe to watch some boy named diego peralta play an acoustic set. i listened to him on myspace and he sounds so good, plus his top friend is elliot smith, so i give him puntos already. aha
so thats all. these are always so long. i have a gift.
"everytime you come around, i feel more alive."
bunches of love from the southern hemisphere <3
Monday, April 20, 2009
i dont feel like writing this really, ive been sooooo busy and im so exhausted. and now im kinda sad i didnt write in here before so i could remember everything. i guess ill put in the effort to remember so i dont regret it later.
also, side note, coldplay is the best thing ive ever listened to, at least now, but maybe thats why im getting so tired.
ok so lets see, the thurs after my last post (the 9th) i went to my friends house after class and we made choc chip cookies! it was a wonderful wonderful american treat, then i went to ache havana the salsa place again, but it wasnt as fun that night cause it was sooooo crowded, i barely danced cause i just kept getting run into. then we left and went to a club called goose. we danced for a reallllly long time, it was a really fun group, more chileans than gringos and very good looking boys :)
um then fri i dont think i did anything in the daytime, and at night i went to maggie's house to make banana bread. we had "once" with her family and it was so so much fun. her family is so laid back and welcoming and fun. i got really sad when i was sitting having dinner with them cause i just kept thinknig that there is a chance i will never get to see them again after a few months. i hate that i feel so lucky to meet all the wonderful people i have here but no knowing how long it could last or if i will ever see them again. anyways, moving on from side note. then vanessa maggie and i had really need gossip update and bonding time :)
then sat i probs did nothing again, i think i slept alot prob, then i went to my friend al's house for a "previa" (pregame) and that was fun, we played stupid drinking games and it was again more chileans (camilla, her friend, al, juan pablo, maggie elizabeth, vanessa, some isreali boy y yo) it was just fun to go to someones place and hang out. then we went to a club called scratch. i like there better, not so crowded and it has different levels. we met up with italo and lufe there too and then just danced for hours again as usual.
sun iiiiii, idk what i did, hw for sure and maybe beach and then i went and watched a movie at lufe's house. then monday i went to classes as usual, only i didnt have my middle one, which i didnt find out til i got there...across towns....umm again did nothing that night i think. tues i went to dance class and pilates....that was hard. then that night went salsa dancing again, only it wasnt as fun cause i was with literally a group of about 20 gringas and it was too crowded in general. i also danced with a really random guy who wanted to help teach me, only i couldnt understand anything he said and he way too awkwardly forced my hips and legs to go where he wanted, it was weird. thankfully, my friends pulled me away and we left. thennnnn wed i went to classes and ran and went to the beach and then lufe came over, had din din with the madre and i and we just hung out.
thurs i went to a meeting about volunteering that im going to do, its making food and serving it to homeless people. it seems like it will be really great, im just a little nervous cause its late at night, but i get to do it with maggie, so thats fun. then i also went to a metting to do a language exchange program with other chileans, where we meet at least an hour a week and talk half in english and half in spanish. i already knew one of the girls which was awesome, i felt like i knew chileans! haha and they are all really nice, we have already planned movie nights and parties to have and biking excursions and one girl and her friend are gonna take me on a tour of cool arquitecture in valpo, so im excited cause i think i met more nice people. umm then i went to class. then that night was really interesting...
we (maggie vanessa and i) were trying to make it an early night cause we had to go somewhere with our program fri early. well, we ended up going to viene (a cute art bar) with camilla for awhile and then meeting up with her cousin (but without her) and going to his friends house to hang out...it ended up being literally 12 chilean boys and us 3 gringas. at first it was so weird and we were just like, where the fuck are we going, what are we doing, baaaad idea. it was awk for awhile and then they started opening up and it was pretty fun. i talked to lots of them and we had some actual good conversations. they were kinda immature tho, they wanted to play spin the bottle...thats how it works here tho, i mean the immaturity thing, its all a little behind, kids are baby-ed so much here and act like american 21 year old when they are like 25. strange. but if anything it was really good practice for my spanish, and if i say so myself i was really good at it that night :) haha also i met another boy who wants to do like one on one practice of english and spanish, so thats great, he also invited me to go out with them the next night which made me feel good that they actually meant it when they said they wanted to hang out again. its just so weird how nice everyone is and how willing they are to be ur friend and put lots of effort into it. i cant count how many times the boys who own the house told me/us that we could come back and just hang out whenever. but anyways we went to bed way too late that night and then i got up early to go to rabuco with my program
rabuco is like a small country town an hour away. we went and saw a grape farm where the grapes that dole uses grow. it was kinda cool, as cool as seeing the growing and packaging of grapes can be. then we had the BEST empanadas ever and fresh fruit (it was a dole farm...obvio) and fresh marmalade and danced the cueca and played fun games like 3 legged race and egg on a spoon and umm potato sack and tug of war. then i also saw a hugeee garden of flowers and we had once with the family who was doing all this for us. it was really nice, of course and then i passed out on the bus on the way home and just stayed in fri.
then sat i went to an asado (bbq) for my friend kathleen's bday. it was sooooo fun. it was at the botanical garden and literally the best day we could ask for. there was also another university party going on so there were tons of kids my age and music and stuff. we just ate drank and talked forever and walked around the park. it was so fun, i also got to meet vanessa's parents, well, mom and her bf, and that was cool, but it was weird to speak to an adult in english, i havent done that for awhile...and then we had a hell of a time getting home cause the bus system shut down so we went through a lot of walking and work to get on the metro, where some drunken drama happened, but its all good. then i had dinner at home, the most amazing chocolate cereal we have here (which i ate instead of the ground up chicken soup mush my mom left me, thinknig i wouldnt notice...) and then we went to al's apartment again to pregame. i got shwasted. the most here so far, it was pretty funny, until i had to walk for 20 mins on VERY uneven sidewalk to scratch. maggie was funny cause she was pretty drunk too and just wrapped herself around my hip and like steered (steared? o english how ive forgotten u) me while david held me up haha, o my. it was funny. then we danced yet again for hourssss, i mean we got there at 1230 and left at 530...idk why we do that.
then sun i got up early and went to an antique fair in valpo with vanessa and her fam. that was fun, i got a necklace and saw things i want to buy later. then we went back to the sheraton where her fam is staying and hung by the pool/ocean and ate and talked. then her chilean sister came and we went into the spa, it was all sooo beautiful, its by far the nicest hotel around here, its where all the famous people stay, including joe biden who was just here fyi. so i stayed with them all day and then went to lufe's to watch a movie.
then today i just had classes literally allll day. then i went to kathleen's house to have a mini cake/bday party. it was so cute, her family was nice and had decorated and had cake and mini sandwiches and cookies and all kinds of good stuff. and then i came here did work and am now procrastinating...
ok thank god i got that finished. im sure ill appreciate it later, but right now i just wanna sleep. hah. ok, im done
"my song is love"
also, side note, coldplay is the best thing ive ever listened to, at least now, but maybe thats why im getting so tired.
ok so lets see, the thurs after my last post (the 9th) i went to my friends house after class and we made choc chip cookies! it was a wonderful wonderful american treat, then i went to ache havana the salsa place again, but it wasnt as fun that night cause it was sooooo crowded, i barely danced cause i just kept getting run into. then we left and went to a club called goose. we danced for a reallllly long time, it was a really fun group, more chileans than gringos and very good looking boys :)
um then fri i dont think i did anything in the daytime, and at night i went to maggie's house to make banana bread. we had "once" with her family and it was so so much fun. her family is so laid back and welcoming and fun. i got really sad when i was sitting having dinner with them cause i just kept thinknig that there is a chance i will never get to see them again after a few months. i hate that i feel so lucky to meet all the wonderful people i have here but no knowing how long it could last or if i will ever see them again. anyways, moving on from side note. then vanessa maggie and i had really need gossip update and bonding time :)
then sat i probs did nothing again, i think i slept alot prob, then i went to my friend al's house for a "previa" (pregame) and that was fun, we played stupid drinking games and it was again more chileans (camilla, her friend, al, juan pablo, maggie elizabeth, vanessa, some isreali boy y yo) it was just fun to go to someones place and hang out. then we went to a club called scratch. i like there better, not so crowded and it has different levels. we met up with italo and lufe there too and then just danced for hours again as usual.
sun iiiiii, idk what i did, hw for sure and maybe beach and then i went and watched a movie at lufe's house. then monday i went to classes as usual, only i didnt have my middle one, which i didnt find out til i got there...across towns....umm again did nothing that night i think. tues i went to dance class and pilates....that was hard. then that night went salsa dancing again, only it wasnt as fun cause i was with literally a group of about 20 gringas and it was too crowded in general. i also danced with a really random guy who wanted to help teach me, only i couldnt understand anything he said and he way too awkwardly forced my hips and legs to go where he wanted, it was weird. thankfully, my friends pulled me away and we left. thennnnn wed i went to classes and ran and went to the beach and then lufe came over, had din din with the madre and i and we just hung out.
thurs i went to a meeting about volunteering that im going to do, its making food and serving it to homeless people. it seems like it will be really great, im just a little nervous cause its late at night, but i get to do it with maggie, so thats fun. then i also went to a metting to do a language exchange program with other chileans, where we meet at least an hour a week and talk half in english and half in spanish. i already knew one of the girls which was awesome, i felt like i knew chileans! haha and they are all really nice, we have already planned movie nights and parties to have and biking excursions and one girl and her friend are gonna take me on a tour of cool arquitecture in valpo, so im excited cause i think i met more nice people. umm then i went to class. then that night was really interesting...
we (maggie vanessa and i) were trying to make it an early night cause we had to go somewhere with our program fri early. well, we ended up going to viene (a cute art bar) with camilla for awhile and then meeting up with her cousin (but without her) and going to his friends house to hang out...it ended up being literally 12 chilean boys and us 3 gringas. at first it was so weird and we were just like, where the fuck are we going, what are we doing, baaaad idea. it was awk for awhile and then they started opening up and it was pretty fun. i talked to lots of them and we had some actual good conversations. they were kinda immature tho, they wanted to play spin the bottle...thats how it works here tho, i mean the immaturity thing, its all a little behind, kids are baby-ed so much here and act like american 21 year old when they are like 25. strange. but if anything it was really good practice for my spanish, and if i say so myself i was really good at it that night :) haha also i met another boy who wants to do like one on one practice of english and spanish, so thats great, he also invited me to go out with them the next night which made me feel good that they actually meant it when they said they wanted to hang out again. its just so weird how nice everyone is and how willing they are to be ur friend and put lots of effort into it. i cant count how many times the boys who own the house told me/us that we could come back and just hang out whenever. but anyways we went to bed way too late that night and then i got up early to go to rabuco with my program
rabuco is like a small country town an hour away. we went and saw a grape farm where the grapes that dole uses grow. it was kinda cool, as cool as seeing the growing and packaging of grapes can be. then we had the BEST empanadas ever and fresh fruit (it was a dole farm...obvio) and fresh marmalade and danced the cueca and played fun games like 3 legged race and egg on a spoon and umm potato sack and tug of war. then i also saw a hugeee garden of flowers and we had once with the family who was doing all this for us. it was really nice, of course and then i passed out on the bus on the way home and just stayed in fri.
then sat i went to an asado (bbq) for my friend kathleen's bday. it was sooooo fun. it was at the botanical garden and literally the best day we could ask for. there was also another university party going on so there were tons of kids my age and music and stuff. we just ate drank and talked forever and walked around the park. it was so fun, i also got to meet vanessa's parents, well, mom and her bf, and that was cool, but it was weird to speak to an adult in english, i havent done that for awhile...and then we had a hell of a time getting home cause the bus system shut down so we went through a lot of walking and work to get on the metro, where some drunken drama happened, but its all good. then i had dinner at home, the most amazing chocolate cereal we have here (which i ate instead of the ground up chicken soup mush my mom left me, thinknig i wouldnt notice...) and then we went to al's apartment again to pregame. i got shwasted. the most here so far, it was pretty funny, until i had to walk for 20 mins on VERY uneven sidewalk to scratch. maggie was funny cause she was pretty drunk too and just wrapped herself around my hip and like steered (steared? o english how ive forgotten u) me while david held me up haha, o my. it was funny. then we danced yet again for hourssss, i mean we got there at 1230 and left at 530...idk why we do that.
then sun i got up early and went to an antique fair in valpo with vanessa and her fam. that was fun, i got a necklace and saw things i want to buy later. then we went back to the sheraton where her fam is staying and hung by the pool/ocean and ate and talked. then her chilean sister came and we went into the spa, it was all sooo beautiful, its by far the nicest hotel around here, its where all the famous people stay, including joe biden who was just here fyi. so i stayed with them all day and then went to lufe's to watch a movie.
then today i just had classes literally allll day. then i went to kathleen's house to have a mini cake/bday party. it was so cute, her family was nice and had decorated and had cake and mini sandwiches and cookies and all kinds of good stuff. and then i came here did work and am now procrastinating...
ok thank god i got that finished. im sure ill appreciate it later, but right now i just wanna sleep. hah. ok, im done
"my song is love"
Friday, April 10, 2009
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
hiii
i have more wonderful things to share! :)
welll lets see, i dont rememeber last mon, i guess nothing happened. then tues i went to my friends bday party, that was kinda fun, but everyone was talking in english and it was such a big group i just got overwhelmed and shy. sooo me and camilla and vanessa left early, i dont know why i go out on tuesdays, i have class so early on wed, but it was a bday, so i had too. hah then wed hmm, my memory is bad, i dont remember anything special that day either....
but thurs! well this day i went out to coyote quemado, a bar in valpo thats really cheap and met maggie, camilla, and connor and one of camilla's friends, mateas and some others. we got bored their and camillas friends were going to some school party so we decided to go with mateas to a gay club (i forget the name). IT WAS AMAZING. one of the best nights i have had here so far. we just danced to the music videos of amazing songs, including old school britney, katy perry, lady gaga, spice girls, yelle, single ladies, i mean every awesomely perfect pop song u can think of. and the best part was that everyone knew all teh words in english. it was so so so mcuh fun, we just danced until VERY late. def my latest night yet. also, maggie got pulled into a stall in the bathroom with a guy and girl and asked who she wanted to make out with first...apparently the bathrooms there arent really for going potty. me and maggie also figured out that by just telling creepers who wanted to dance/touch/talk to us we were "parejas" they would respect that and just leave us alone. but really, there werent many creepy guys there, which i think is why i liked it so much, also, everyone was just so so content to be themselves, it was such a free place and i just never felt awkward or judged. it was so nice.
then friday i had to get up early and finish an essay and then went to get my chilean id! that was really exciting. only i look about 12 in it haha. then i went out to eat and had very yummy crepes with manjar (the amazing dulce de leche fudge like stuff i cant get enough of). then went to a program class. that night i didnt feel so good or up for going out, so i went to vanessa's house and her and kathleen and i just ate an ice cream log (another amazing perk to living here) and talked. i really really like those girls, we get along so well, i can just tell they actually genuinely care about me and others. vanessa especially has been so great, she is always asking me how i am, esp with sean shit, and its just nice to know that even tho she hasnt known me for so long, she cares and it feels like we've been friends for a long time. also, by chance her family lives in scottsdale some months out of the year...how weird is that? soo that night was really fun, and def reminded me of hs.
then sat i didnt do anything in the daytime. that night i went with ashley and kathleen to meet mateas and his friends/potential bf. i was really excited mostly just cause mateas just reassured me so much about how he wanted me to come, and its just always nice to have someone (esp a chilean) make sure u know u are wanted, cause sometimes i feel like a pest since its hard to understand me or i take forever to talk or w/e. anyways, we went to a weird gay bar that was just empty and had a weird vibe. and then we went to a club called blondie. we went to watch his friends' electropop show. he played with 2 girls who i guess are really famous here, i dont remember there names, but i didnt like them. but his show alone was really good. he had two guy backup dancers who were soo good, i later learned they were going out and thats prob why they clicked and had so much emotion in their body language, but anywayssss we watched that, i got hit in the head multiple times with the glow sticks they kept chucking at us haha and then we went upstairs to dance moreee. while i was taking a break against the well, mateas came up to me to gossip about his boy situations (i think he is a man whore ha) it made me happy tho. i feel like i really am making chilean friends who firstly, can understand me and we can actually have conversations, and also that its on a level more than just partying together. cause there are plenty of people to find like that, but i want something that will last or have meaning to it. and i think im finding it with soo many people, american and chilean :)
ok so then kathleen, ashley and i left, but on the way to the bus, we stopped outside of a salsa sounding bar and danced in the street to the music. we could see the band from the window and they kept telling us to come in and tried bribing us with drinks, but we just stayed outside. it was so so fun and random tho.
then sunday i went to the beach :) i went alone for awhile-one of the best things in the world- and then was joined by some gringas. then we went to have ice cream with my friend marco. ha he is such an awkward boy, but he helps us learn spanish and is really really nice.
so then mon morning i was kinda in a weird homesick funk. i didnt like anything about chile, like how i had to take dirty, loud crowded buses so far away to class and always walk hills (not the denison is much diff ha) and that nothing is where/when is says it is and that i just didnt really know anyone here. idk i was cranky and really missing familiar things. but then i snapped out of it haha. i just have to keep remembering that im only here for 3 more months of all the months of my life (o my god the time is flyinggggg)
um, but anyways, i was nervous to go to class that dat too cause i had to join another class...a month late. cause my program fucked up and told me i had enough credits, but on the last day to change schedules they changed their minds. anyways, it was just a gym like class, but its with 80 chileans, so i was super nervous to go. but the profesor was so nice and i met 2 girls who talked to me alot and were really nice. we had to give presentations in front of the whole class, but one girl who was my partner just talked for both of us. i was sooo relieved. there was no way i was gonna be the new girl AND give a presentation in spanish in front of all of them. haha, o terrifying. and then i walked home with vicki and nick. i hadnt really gotten to know nick, he goes to oberlin so i could actually see him again. he is a really really nice kid, i was glad we had a good hour walk to talk haa.
then yest i went to dance class, ran lots of errands and then went to yoga at my school. that was such a joke. it was literally just a little stretching, like headstands and laying there for an hour. the music was good tho. but the lady had no idea what she was doing, i saw her do soo many things other teachers have always told me not to do cause it will fuck u up. so that was boring/entertaining at the same time. i think i might still go just to meet more people, but not actually to work out. umm and then i went out for my friend elizabeths bday. we went and got pizza and then went to a salsa place! we got lessons and danced alottt. our friend lufe ;) taught me how to salsa and some other dance too, it was pretty embarrasing haha. it was a really fun night, just a few of us, i met some more chileans and the dancing was amazing. just watching the people who actually knew what they were doing was sooo beautiful. when the girls dance they just have such a beauty and confidence to them that amazes me. they just look soo sure of themselves and clearly know how to move. i was very envious of them, they were so beautiful to watch.
then today i just went to some classes, went running, actually did yoga, talked to the real fam, ate with the mom and g-ma and did hw, kinda a good laid back day. i was supposed to do some volunteer work, but it got cancelled or something.
soo there is another amazingly long post. idk why people keep telling me to write, you must regret is after haha. wellll thanks for reading if u got this far.
also, have i mentioned that i am the luckiest girl in the world? it keeps hiting me...
so much love floating up (or over, depending on where u are in the world) from chile!
ps. did u know that when i look out to the ocean, if i could, the next piece of land i would be able to see would be new zealand? ya i googled it, so what, how amazing is that?!
i have more wonderful things to share! :)
welll lets see, i dont rememeber last mon, i guess nothing happened. then tues i went to my friends bday party, that was kinda fun, but everyone was talking in english and it was such a big group i just got overwhelmed and shy. sooo me and camilla and vanessa left early, i dont know why i go out on tuesdays, i have class so early on wed, but it was a bday, so i had too. hah then wed hmm, my memory is bad, i dont remember anything special that day either....
but thurs! well this day i went out to coyote quemado, a bar in valpo thats really cheap and met maggie, camilla, and connor and one of camilla's friends, mateas and some others. we got bored their and camillas friends were going to some school party so we decided to go with mateas to a gay club (i forget the name). IT WAS AMAZING. one of the best nights i have had here so far. we just danced to the music videos of amazing songs, including old school britney, katy perry, lady gaga, spice girls, yelle, single ladies, i mean every awesomely perfect pop song u can think of. and the best part was that everyone knew all teh words in english. it was so so so mcuh fun, we just danced until VERY late. def my latest night yet. also, maggie got pulled into a stall in the bathroom with a guy and girl and asked who she wanted to make out with first...apparently the bathrooms there arent really for going potty. me and maggie also figured out that by just telling creepers who wanted to dance/touch/talk to us we were "parejas" they would respect that and just leave us alone. but really, there werent many creepy guys there, which i think is why i liked it so much, also, everyone was just so so content to be themselves, it was such a free place and i just never felt awkward or judged. it was so nice.
then friday i had to get up early and finish an essay and then went to get my chilean id! that was really exciting. only i look about 12 in it haha. then i went out to eat and had very yummy crepes with manjar (the amazing dulce de leche fudge like stuff i cant get enough of). then went to a program class. that night i didnt feel so good or up for going out, so i went to vanessa's house and her and kathleen and i just ate an ice cream log (another amazing perk to living here) and talked. i really really like those girls, we get along so well, i can just tell they actually genuinely care about me and others. vanessa especially has been so great, she is always asking me how i am, esp with sean shit, and its just nice to know that even tho she hasnt known me for so long, she cares and it feels like we've been friends for a long time. also, by chance her family lives in scottsdale some months out of the year...how weird is that? soo that night was really fun, and def reminded me of hs.
then sat i didnt do anything in the daytime. that night i went with ashley and kathleen to meet mateas and his friends/potential bf. i was really excited mostly just cause mateas just reassured me so much about how he wanted me to come, and its just always nice to have someone (esp a chilean) make sure u know u are wanted, cause sometimes i feel like a pest since its hard to understand me or i take forever to talk or w/e. anyways, we went to a weird gay bar that was just empty and had a weird vibe. and then we went to a club called blondie. we went to watch his friends' electropop show. he played with 2 girls who i guess are really famous here, i dont remember there names, but i didnt like them. but his show alone was really good. he had two guy backup dancers who were soo good, i later learned they were going out and thats prob why they clicked and had so much emotion in their body language, but anywayssss we watched that, i got hit in the head multiple times with the glow sticks they kept chucking at us haha and then we went upstairs to dance moreee. while i was taking a break against the well, mateas came up to me to gossip about his boy situations (i think he is a man whore ha) it made me happy tho. i feel like i really am making chilean friends who firstly, can understand me and we can actually have conversations, and also that its on a level more than just partying together. cause there are plenty of people to find like that, but i want something that will last or have meaning to it. and i think im finding it with soo many people, american and chilean :)
ok so then kathleen, ashley and i left, but on the way to the bus, we stopped outside of a salsa sounding bar and danced in the street to the music. we could see the band from the window and they kept telling us to come in and tried bribing us with drinks, but we just stayed outside. it was so so fun and random tho.
then sunday i went to the beach :) i went alone for awhile-one of the best things in the world- and then was joined by some gringas. then we went to have ice cream with my friend marco. ha he is such an awkward boy, but he helps us learn spanish and is really really nice.
so then mon morning i was kinda in a weird homesick funk. i didnt like anything about chile, like how i had to take dirty, loud crowded buses so far away to class and always walk hills (not the denison is much diff ha) and that nothing is where/when is says it is and that i just didnt really know anyone here. idk i was cranky and really missing familiar things. but then i snapped out of it haha. i just have to keep remembering that im only here for 3 more months of all the months of my life (o my god the time is flyinggggg)
um, but anyways, i was nervous to go to class that dat too cause i had to join another class...a month late. cause my program fucked up and told me i had enough credits, but on the last day to change schedules they changed their minds. anyways, it was just a gym like class, but its with 80 chileans, so i was super nervous to go. but the profesor was so nice and i met 2 girls who talked to me alot and were really nice. we had to give presentations in front of the whole class, but one girl who was my partner just talked for both of us. i was sooo relieved. there was no way i was gonna be the new girl AND give a presentation in spanish in front of all of them. haha, o terrifying. and then i walked home with vicki and nick. i hadnt really gotten to know nick, he goes to oberlin so i could actually see him again. he is a really really nice kid, i was glad we had a good hour walk to talk haa.
then yest i went to dance class, ran lots of errands and then went to yoga at my school. that was such a joke. it was literally just a little stretching, like headstands and laying there for an hour. the music was good tho. but the lady had no idea what she was doing, i saw her do soo many things other teachers have always told me not to do cause it will fuck u up. so that was boring/entertaining at the same time. i think i might still go just to meet more people, but not actually to work out. umm and then i went out for my friend elizabeths bday. we went and got pizza and then went to a salsa place! we got lessons and danced alottt. our friend lufe ;) taught me how to salsa and some other dance too, it was pretty embarrasing haha. it was a really fun night, just a few of us, i met some more chileans and the dancing was amazing. just watching the people who actually knew what they were doing was sooo beautiful. when the girls dance they just have such a beauty and confidence to them that amazes me. they just look soo sure of themselves and clearly know how to move. i was very envious of them, they were so beautiful to watch.
then today i just went to some classes, went running, actually did yoga, talked to the real fam, ate with the mom and g-ma and did hw, kinda a good laid back day. i was supposed to do some volunteer work, but it got cancelled or something.
soo there is another amazingly long post. idk why people keep telling me to write, you must regret is after haha. wellll thanks for reading if u got this far.
also, have i mentioned that i am the luckiest girl in the world? it keeps hiting me...
so much love floating up (or over, depending on where u are in the world) from chile!
ps. did u know that when i look out to the ocean, if i could, the next piece of land i would be able to see would be new zealand? ya i googled it, so what, how amazing is that?!
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
buenos,
i dont really have anything to update on, except that i was just feeling particularly happy and at home the last few days and wanted to take note. maybe it was being in a different place everyday for 10 days, but coming "home" to vina was such a great feeling.
sunday i didnt do much, which was exactly what i wanted and then in the evening my dad,mom, brothers, niece, grandparents and some friends all watched the "la roja" (chile) vs. peru soccer game, which is a HUGE deal here. it was so nice, we just relaxed, ate homemade pizza and had fun. it was funny too cause i helped make sure my bro's friends had cups and all that, like i was hosting too. i dunno, it was just so great to spend time with them and really feel like a family.
then the other day at lunch my mom and i had such a great talk for like 2 hours. we talked about EVERYTHING. boys, raising kids, traveling, dreams, death, school, siblings, politics, i mean everything. and in spanish! it was sooooo nice to talk to her and know she really cares. sometimes its kinda hard not actually having anyone here to talk to that i know and only being able to use the computer, but now i really feel like i can go to her with anything. she is just such a caring person and we have the same views on almost everything, i really respect her advice/opinions too.
also, maybe that same day we were talking about how whenever she leaves for the day or whatever she always makes sure to leave food ready for "the family" and i said o ya, i know, you even do that for me too. and she just looked at me with a weird look and said that when she said "family" i was included, that was a given. and that just made me so happy.
i think ive just finally reached the point where i really feel at home, i feel comfortable getting whatever food i want, doing what i want, just being normal and natural in the house...its about time! and then tonight my mom dad and i watched the chile vs uruguay game, we ate, my mom knitted and my dad was building some cabinet, we just relaxed together, no awkward silence, just that silence thats ok when u really know someone...i hope u know what i mean when i say that and i dont sound crazy...
anyways, the update is that i love my family and im still so fucking lucky :)
tooooo much love from chile <3
i dont really have anything to update on, except that i was just feeling particularly happy and at home the last few days and wanted to take note. maybe it was being in a different place everyday for 10 days, but coming "home" to vina was such a great feeling.
sunday i didnt do much, which was exactly what i wanted and then in the evening my dad,mom, brothers, niece, grandparents and some friends all watched the "la roja" (chile) vs. peru soccer game, which is a HUGE deal here. it was so nice, we just relaxed, ate homemade pizza and had fun. it was funny too cause i helped make sure my bro's friends had cups and all that, like i was hosting too. i dunno, it was just so great to spend time with them and really feel like a family.
then the other day at lunch my mom and i had such a great talk for like 2 hours. we talked about EVERYTHING. boys, raising kids, traveling, dreams, death, school, siblings, politics, i mean everything. and in spanish! it was sooooo nice to talk to her and know she really cares. sometimes its kinda hard not actually having anyone here to talk to that i know and only being able to use the computer, but now i really feel like i can go to her with anything. she is just such a caring person and we have the same views on almost everything, i really respect her advice/opinions too.
also, maybe that same day we were talking about how whenever she leaves for the day or whatever she always makes sure to leave food ready for "the family" and i said o ya, i know, you even do that for me too. and she just looked at me with a weird look and said that when she said "family" i was included, that was a given. and that just made me so happy.
i think ive just finally reached the point where i really feel at home, i feel comfortable getting whatever food i want, doing what i want, just being normal and natural in the house...its about time! and then tonight my mom dad and i watched the chile vs uruguay game, we ate, my mom knitted and my dad was building some cabinet, we just relaxed together, no awkward silence, just that silence thats ok when u really know someone...i hope u know what i mean when i say that and i dont sound crazy...
anyways, the update is that i love my family and im still so fucking lucky :)
tooooo much love from chile <3
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